When I failed one of my two major exams, I was devastated. Not to mention that I missed two out of the five quizzes given to the class because I was sick. During those moments I wanted to wrestle with God and ask why He had to put me in that kind of situation. I studied. I prayed.
But then after being upset at Him and after all those complaining and whining, I figured out that all I could ever do again is to still walk up to Him say “Okay God, let’s try this again. I’m gonna trust You in this.”
So days before the finals, there you would find me alone with my books at a coffee shop. I wish I could say I was in faith all those times. I wasn’t. I wish I could say I didn’t doubt God. I did. It crossed my mind several times that I might not pass this exam and I won’t be able to graduate. How could I still ever think of that even after Him seeing me through all my college life?
What’s amazing about God is that even if we are faithless and full of doubt, it doesn’t change the fact that He is God – a faithful God to us at that.
I came to realize that no matter how much I protest, or even how many failures or heartaches I could get in this walk of faith, life with Him is still better than anywhere else. So today before I checked my grades online – and to see if I’m going to graduate this March – everything that God has done for me in that weeks of painful stretching flashed back in my mind and that gave me enough reason and strength to resolve to do one thing, “Lord, whatever happens, I will still choose to praise you.”
Daniel 3:16-18 recounts the “Even if he does not” kind of faith of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego when they replied to the king who wants them to fall down and worship the image of gold that he has set up, “King Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us from Your Majesty’s hand. But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.”
I decided to do the same. I can’t anymore think of any reason why I shouldn’t praise Him. So even if I see an F on my screen, I’ll still praise Him. Even if I won’t graduate this March, I’ll still praise Him. Even if he does not, I’ll still praise Him simply because He’s my God.
God rescued the three boys. They came out of the blazing furnace whole and without any burns – even their robes weren’t scorched. God rescued me today too. I passed, no, I actually got a good grade in that subject I almost flunked. I wonder how He did it. I received His miracle today. I’m officially graduating this March.
Oh how God can still show miracles even to the likes of me.
You too may be wondering why God is putting you in that situation. Maybe God wants to show His faithfulness to you once more. Just hang in there. God will see you through.