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June 20, 2011 by by Fiona Mae Alvero

A good friend of mine shared to me this beautiful song entitled “Five Loaves and Two Fishes” and I’ve been listening to it repeatedly. It speaks a lot of my situation and where I am today. Thought this song is worth sharing to everyone. Listen to it and look carefully at the lyrics. I highlighted my favorite parts. :) Hope it will bless you just as how it blessed me. Enjoy!

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly, the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn’t sure what good it’d do, there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child
he said:

“Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all”

I often think about that boy when I’m feeling small
And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry is a diamond
in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer

So I’ll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my “Amen”

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it’s not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small

– Corrinne May, Five Loaves and Two Fishes

Lord, all I have is this small, but I am surrendering and offering it all to you anyway. I trust in you. Use everything of it as you will.

06.20.11 10:11pm

June 13, 2011 by by Fiona Mae Alvero

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles’ wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

– Chris Tomlin, I Will Rise

 I was listening to this song while I was on my way home and I couldn’t help but to tear up. Just a couple of weeks ago, one courageous lady with amputated legs led 7,000 people to worship with this song. It was the most beautiful irony I’ve ever witnessed in my life – a young lady who could’ve been down for losing her legs yet stands and sings otherwise.

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles’ wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

That lady was Raissa Laurel. She was one of the speakers at the recently concluded Ignite 2011: LifeBox Campus Conference held at Cuneta Astrodome.

Raissa lost her two legs from a bar exam blast last year. We all know her. We’ve heard her in the news so many times and she has inspired a lot of people with how she responded in great faith despite the devastating incident that happened to her.

When I saw Raissa went up the stage all alone in her artificial legs and stood up before 7,000 young people on the second day of Ignite 2011, I was completely moved. She didn’t need to speak even one word to make me understand and believe that God is real. That alone was a powerful testimony in itself.

Raissa shared to us that night that in the most painful moment of her life, when she was brought to the hospital after a bomb mangled her legs, she only had one intention in mind – to worship Him in the midst of the unexplainable pain she was feeling.

How can a young lady worship God in the middle of pain? Right in the event of losing her two legs? And how can that same lady even lead 7,000 young people to worship? It doesn’t make sense, does it?

I mean, SERIOUSLY!!! I wanted that night to be in my most rebellious self and tell God, LORD YOU DON’T MAKE SENSE IN ALL OF THESE! HOW COULD THIS EVER HAPPEN? But more than that, I sobbed most because there was this unexplainable peace in my heart realizing how REAL, I mean really really real this can happen because we have a powerful and mighty God who can instantly turn sorrow to joy or bring death to life.

Each of us has our own shares of pain and sorrow. But with this encounter I had at Ignite, I have proven that there’s no amount of pain and sorrow that can or should stop us from worshiping God. Raissa did. You can too. And it doesn’t have to make sense.

After that night, I never looked at life the same way again. How can I still not believe, trust and worship God in every season of my life after witnessing Him right before my very eyes through this young lady’s life?

God, you are so real. I will be forever amazed.

There’s a peace I’ve come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There’s an anchor for my soul
I can say “It is well”

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles’ wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

There’s a day that’s drawing near
When this darkness breaks to light
And the shadows disappear
And my faith shall be my eyes

And I hear the voice of many angels sing,
“Worthy is the Lamb”
And I hear the cry of every longing heart,
“Worthy is the Lamb”

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles’ wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

06.13.11 10:52pm

June 13, 2011 by by Fiona Mae Alvero

I would still often catch myself remembering how God has brought me to this office – either or both for the reason to encourage me when I feel so horrible and crappy at work or to pull me back to the ground and humble me when I forget at times that it’s not about me.

In just almost two months of working at LifeBox, I’ve probably have experienced and learned more than a two month’s worth. It’s still a roller coaster ride up until now. There are days that I couldn’t sleep at night because of sheer excitement at the thought of being able to come to work. And then there are days that I would have to drag myself out of my bed and convince that I need to do this. Sometimes I have more courage to speak my thoughts but most of the time I feel how much I still need to learn.

And I guess that’s where the grace of God comes in. It’s His grace that started it all in the first place.

When I got hired and was told of the responsibilities I need to handle, I looked at myself and realize how underserving I am for this role. There are no other reasons I could think of why I am here aside from His grace. And that gives me a lot of comfort especially during times when I have no idea what I am doing because I know that if it’s the grace of God that got me to be in this job, then it’s also gonna be by His grace that I will be able to go through whatever I will face in this new season.

Then I know everything’s gonna be just fine. :)

“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness…”

– 2 Corinthians 12:9

To be continued….

06.13.11 5:48pm