I will be very upfront to tell you that I am afraid of what I am going to do in the next month. But I’ve decided to muster up all the courage I have and take the jump anyway.
In the next 30 days of April, I am going on a 30-day blog series. I was originally planning to do it in March when I needed something to keep the ball rolling on here, but for some reason, it just didn’t work out. Plus during that time, when I was contemplating on the one topic I wanted to write about (I initially wanted to go for something in the lines of “courage”) for 30 consecutive days, I didn’t feel so sold out.
Then things happened.
And then I finally figured out what in my heart I really wanted to write about this time.
I decided I’d go for this…
Yes. That one.
So each day, in the next 30 days, I’m writing about one thing I find in God.
Putting fears aside, I’m really excited to go on the series with this topic.
Cause the other day, when I tried listing down on a piece of paper the things I find in Him, I realize I could go on for years.
Or maybe a lifetime.
I cannot wait to unpack one truth each day in the next 30 days.
And by the way, in case you decide to stick around for the next 30 days (you’re more than welcome to do so! And I don’t really bite! :D thank you in advance!), I really do hope and pray that you will find encouragement through this 30-day series even in the smallest and simplest way. :)
Whenever I need to keep myself seated on my desk and get focused on finishing a task at work, I like to do it with a cup of coffee and earphones on. Sometimes I try not to be too dependent on them but if I really want to be productive, I figured this is the best way to keep me in the zone.
The right kind of playlist helps a lot too. I say right because it doesn’t have to be my favorite songs. I just need to hear something that sounds consistent. So at work, I don’t listen to playlists composed of songs by various artists. I sit through albums.
This afternoon, after many weeks of putting either Jamie Grace’s Ready to Fly album or the Hillsong Young & Free on loop, I thought it was time to set them aside for a while and try listening to the recent album I got, the Glorious Ruins.
And by the way, I’m not sure if it’s the obsessive compulsive in me but aside from having a consistent-sounding playlist, I also want to listen to the songs in the album in chronological order.
So I had “Always Will” as the first song to go on play this afternoon. I was about to dig in and start crossing out items on my checklist when I heard a lyric of the song that kinda threw me off a bit because to me it didn’t sound right. I stopped to think about it for a while.
The lyrics go,
“Where I go
You (referring to God) will go
You never leave me”
I’m sure the writer of the song meant well and it’s true that God never leaves us. But Him going where I go? Wait. I don’t think so.
I had a hard time accepting that because when I started to think about the lyrics, I had imagined the kinds of path I sometimes choose to go and by the looks of it, they certainly aren’t the paths God would be pleased to go and take. They’re mostly filthy. Unwise. Foolish. They are not the kind of place fit for a holy God to go to.
It’s the reason why I spend many nights praying to God to lead me and guide my steps. Because I’m aware of my tendencies. I’ve come to understand – and though sometimes I still doubt – that He knows best than I am. His ways better. Thoughts higher. I want to go where He goes. I want to follow where He leads me.
“Where You go, I will go” sounds much better and right to me. Not the other way around.
So, no. We’re not buying into what this song is saying.
Well. I almost didn’t.
Before I got to click the skip button and go to the next track of the album, I began to be reminded of the time when Jesus was on His way up on a hill – thorns of crown piercing His head, shoulders weary from the weight of the cross that He had been carrying and spirit crushed from the mockery of the people around Him.
And then it all made sense to me.
That’s why He died on the cross, didn’t He? Because He went where I was. And when He followed my path of sin, it led Him to Calvary. He stepped down from heaven and travelled the path He didn’t deserve to take. He did go where I was. And He chose to begin loving me not when I was already taking the right path but when I was still sinning my way through life.
And that’s why all these times, all these times, wherever I may be – on the mountain top, down the valley, through the storm and mostly when I end up taking the wrong path, there I find His grace and love constantly present and always still.
Because He does go where we go. Not because the paths we choose to take on our own are paths worth going to, I realize. But because to Him, regardless of where He finds us in, we’re worth loving still.
“Your love keeps chasing me
And it always will
It always will
Your grace keeps changing me
And it always will
It always will
You gave Your life away
Once and for all
Once and for all
Forever You will reign
And You always will
You always will”
– Always Will, Hillsong United